God’s mystery of butterflies

January 19

John 12:32 Jesus said: “And I, when I am lifted up from the earth, will draw all people to myself.”

Meditation: My father had always been the parent I had felt emotionally very close to. I admired him. As I got older, I also saw his wounds, his flaws and shortcomings. But overall, he was a gracious, humble and loving person. He was also the one who taught me about God’s love. It is inevitable that much of the relationship I have with God was shaped by the relationship I had with my Dad. When he died, I was an adult. And yet, whenever I see a butterfly, I exclaim like a child: “Look, there is a butterfly. My Dad is sending me a sign.” The butterfly has become a symbol for me that captures the power of resurrection that my Dad believed in. It also is this very concrete symbol of beauty, mystery and life that reminds and draws me to the source of all love and grace. As Jesus promised “to draw all people to himself” after he was lifted up from the earth, the butterfly embodies for me the same energy and promise. It is becoming for me the symbol of ongoing connection, of never ending love, or outreaching grace…Even my daughters who never met my Dad see a butterfly and say: “Look Opa (“grandpa”) is saying hello”. This is how faith, how the Spirit of love, connection and trust is being passed on from generation to generation.

Prayer: Jesus, thank you for your words of love and care. When you knew you had to leave, you reassured your disciples and the following generations that they would not be alone, but that you will reach out to us. Thank you for sending us signs of your inreaching arms. Thank you for the butterflies.

Quote: “I welcome all butterflies into my heart because that feeling is a constant reminder of how alive and full of love I truly am.”

― Karen A. Baquiran

Our exhaustion – God’s opportunity

The truth of human freedom lies in the love that breaks down barriers. Jürgen Moltmann

Meditation: Sometimes we work very hard. But no matter how hard we try, doors do not open up. The reward of our labor does not show. We feel there are obstacles all around: skepticism, criticism, lack of support, loneliness and lack of resources. It feels like no matter how good a work we do, no matter how intensely we labor, there seem to be mountains after mountains to climb and closed doors all around to bang our heads on. And then we run out of resources – we become exhausted. God’s promise to walk before us, to level our mountains, to break through steal doors and to replenish us with new resources breaks into our loneliness and struggle. “I am not walking alone”. Even just the realization of being seen, of being known as I am facing obstacles feels healing. The promise to make a way for me, to give me all I need, and even bestow riches upon me feels like a promise that is too good to be true. But it is not! God gave water and bread to the Israelites in the desert, and God will give us bread and water as we walk through our desert of anxiety and exhaustion saying: “Come, eat and drink, for the journey is far”.

Prayer: God, your are ultimate abundance. You want to give us all the resources we need to flourish. You remove obstacles we cannot overcome ourselves. You have hidden plans of secret riches that you want to bestow upon us, just when we come to our wits end. Thank you for your bountiful Spirit. Amen

I will go before you and will level the mountains; I will break down gates of bronze and cut through bars of iron. I will give you hidden treasures, riches stored in secret places, so that you may know that I am the LORD, the God of Israel, who summons you by name. Isaiah 45, 2-3

 

Being still means not to react and not to retaliate

January 17

Exodus 14:14

“God will fight for you. You only need to be still.”

Meditation:

We have a President elect, in three days becoming acting President, who fights back when he feels attacked. He usually turns the accusation back at the perceived accuser and maginfies the accusation. Usually this tactic seems to work for him. At least it distracts and confuses things. And it toxifies the atmosphere. Enemies arise that never before had seen themselves as in opposition. Black and white lines are being drawn, when things had been colorful or at least gray before. When I, when we as society through twitter, social media and even the news take in the outfall of toxic politics, we get easily infected…infected with anger, even with hate. And those emotions can start errupting on all sides…

Prayer: God, when fear comes, when anger and rage creep into my soul, remind me whose I am. Remind me that in not retaliating originates our strength. You are love. You are justice. Love and justice will prevail in the end. Help me not to react, but to be still.

Quote: “Returning hate for hate multiplies hate, adding deeper darkness to a night already devoid of stars. Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate, only love can do that.” Martin Luther King

Being double minded

January 16

James 4:8 Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded.

Meditation: Sometimes we cannot help but be “double minded”. We feel trust and doubt at the same time. We love God, and yet wonder at times if he loves us. I think this is our human existence. This is how we are. And God knows that.

I cannot even purify my heart by myself. I can wash my hands, but even that ritual does not provide the relief I am longing for.

Why does God allow those times of doubt, wonder, fear and estrangement from God, from ourselves and from others?

I think that our crying out to God becomes even more real. Our prayers become even more human. And our human needs and vulnerabilities are being carefully held and embraced by God, when we are ready to be held and embraced.

Prayer: Loving God, you allow those confused, troubled and strange times where we feel so far from you, and you seem so far from us and our experience. You wait for us. You wait until we are ready to say: “Come, oh God. Hold me, embrace me” and as the thief on the cross said: “take me with you.” Amen

Quote: “Jesus himself did not try to convert the two thieves on the cross; he waited until one of them turned to him.”  ― Dietrich Bonhoeffer

 

Our relationship with food

January 15

1.Corinthians 10:31 So, whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God.

Meditation: Many women and men struggle with their relationship with food. We diet, we overeat, we restrict and we indulge. It is hard to find balance, to find freedom in the jungle of fast food signs and diet books.

How can I eat and drink and do so with freedom and joy?

Eating enough so my body is strong and has the nurture and energy it needs.

And not overeat out of loneliness, out of fear of not having enough, out of guilt, out of boredom…

Prayer: Loving God, come into our imbalance. Come into our extremes of relating to food and to drinking. Come into our deepest need for love, community, acceptance and joy. And then liberate us to a new relationship with our body, with food and drinks, and with you. Amen

Quote: “When I eat with my friends, it is a moment of real pleasure, when I really enjoy my life.” Monica Bellucci

 

 

January 14, 2017

January 14

Genesis 28: 15 a

Behold, I am with you and will keep you wherever you go, and will bring you back to this land. For I will not leave you until I have done what I have promised you.”

Meditation”: What an amazing promise! If only the refugees of our time could hear this. Many of them left destroyed homes, cities and they lost family members. Or does this only mean Israel? Back then it did. What about today? What after Jesus opened up the ancient promises to the rest of the world?

God’s words of commitment and of love in today’s world of terror, fear and uprooting:

“I will keep you, and comfort you as one’s mother comforts.”

“I will bring you back. I honor your need for a home.”

“I will not leave you. Even if your identity of country, of language and tradition get lost, you will not lose your identity with me.”

“I will do what I promised you. I am trustworthy and faithful.”

Prayer: Loving God, come into our places of up rootedness. Come into our restlessness and our feelings of losing our mind and our identity. Come into our fleeing and into our uncertainty of where we will land.  Amen

Quote: “Who am I? They mock me, these lonely questions of mine. Whoever I am, Thou knowest me, O God, I am Thine.” –Dietrich Bonhoeffer

 

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