In the end, just three things matter: How well we have lived. How well we have loved. How well we have learned to let go. Jack Kornfield
Meditation: At times is not easy for me to “let go”. Usually these are times when I feel anxious, overwhelmed, lonely or unsupported. Then I feel the weight of the world on my shoulders. I feel so overly responsible. And as a reaction I develop the tendency of wanting to control how things go. I diligently watch out for certain outcomes to happen. When I am caught in this way of thinking and feeling, I often become very anxious. I begin to stare at a particular outcome, as if everything depended on it. Having faith is the opposite of controlling based on anxiety. It means to breathe deeply while realizing that I am not alone and that I do not need to be in control. Having faith means to no longer feel overly responsible for ideal things or for perfect outcomes. It means letting go of the burden of over-responsibility, as I am realizing that I am not in control anyhow. For me breathing deeply while surrendering my anxiety to God is the beginning point of having faith. When I can step back and look at the bigger picture, my anxiety usually lowers. When I think not of ideals, but of how I can live life well, my trust in life grows. And when I think about what is most loving, rather than what is “perfect”, I become able to calm down. During my training as an educator I often heard the sentence: “Trust the process”. This means to accept that even though I do not necessarily get the outcome I anticipate, there are valuable lessons along the way and many opportunities to practice living well, loving much and letting go.
Prayer: God, help me to surrender my anxiety to you, every time it raises its “ugly head”. Help me not to stare or focus on ideal or perfect outcomes, but rather follow your lead to live life well, love as much as I can and let my anxiety go. Take my anxiety every time it comes back, guard my heart and fill me with your peace. Amen
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. (Philippians 4:6-7)