The Anger at Death Being Unfair…

It is important to feel the anger without judging it, without attempting to find meaning in it. It may take many forms: anger at the health-care system, at life, at your loved one for leaving. Life is unfair. Death is unfair. Anger is a natural reaction to the unfairness of loss. Elisabeth Kubler-Ross

Meditation: My friend is now in the hospital. After intensive care, she is now on the palliative floor. She longs to be home. She longs to one more time go on vacation with her husband and son. She sees so many unfinished things she would like to complete. The past days I have felt numb. Being reminded that feeling angry is OK, has been helpful. I am angry that my friend is too weak to go on vacation. That she can’t eat much and is getting weaker by the day. I am angry that she has to go through this. I am angry that her son won’t have his mother for much longer. I am angry that I can’t be there with her. I am angry! It feels good to be angry and not only numb. Words seem so inadequate at this time. I will call her today. I will need God’s Spirit to not put my anger on her. She has her own process of walking through this time of “letting go”.

Prayer: God, be with my friend who is in distress. Hear her voice, her cry. Thank You that You value our anger and allow it to be. You listen. You listen to all our angry tears, cries of sadness and hope that life will somehow continue. Help my friend to entrust everything into Your care and into Your hands. All her unfinished things, assure her that she will be made complete in Your love for her. Help her be gentle with herself and help her allow herself to depend on others in this vulnerable time. Amen

In my distress I called to the LORD; I cried to my God for help. From his temple he heard my voice; my cry came before him, into his ears. Psalm 18:6