When I am Anxious…

Unease, anxiety, tension, stress, worry – all forms of fear – are caused by too much future, and not enough presence. Eckhart Tolle

Meditation: When I am anxious about the future, I confuse my projected worries with what is actually in front of me. I catapult myself out of the current situation as a way of protecting myself. However, negative predictions also separate me from what is going on in the here and now. I can no longer notice nuances. I can no longer be surprised. I have reduced the current moment to a summary of the past and to a negative prediction of the future. I miss the moment. I miss the opportunity to be intimate, to be vulnerable, to laugh with those who laugh and to cry with those who cry. My anticipatory dread is an understandable way of trying to protect myself. However, it does not work. It actually steals the beauty of the moment. It destroys the potential that the here and now holds. However, being present, fully present… just today… this is a gift of the Spirit of the Living God.

Prayer: Spirit of the Living God, help us to live in the here and now. Help us to boundary in our fears and negative predictions of the future. How do we know what will happen? We are human. We only have today. Fill us with the gift of being fully present with the persons we meet today, including ourselves. Let us not race ahead. Let us not idealize the past. Teach us how to be intimately and fully present, so we can laugh and cry together. Amen

Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble. Matthew 6: 34